I’ve come across the inclination that although this whole time i’ve thought it was your fault for everything that’s transpired and how you’re the one changing – I’ve come to a standstill with my thoughts and grievences, you know what’s more important than all of it – I love you.
I love the you I know, the one that would always be there for me, and the one that was always helping me more than herself. That you isn’t here anymore – and that’s ok because people do change. The guilt I feel right now about our fight is just built up because I feel sad not being able to just call you when I want to or need to – if I called to say sorry because I felt guilty, i’d still have the same issues as before so I can’t do that and I hope you understand that.
Although the you I once knew isn’t around anymore if you get the chance can you tell her I miss her? I haven’t fully put the responsibility and blame on you though because I’ve come to the full circle realization that maybe I never even really knew you at all. I knew you as you – but with someone else added to the equation? I wasn’t all to familiar with who that person was and maybe that’s the half of this, and maybe it’s not – but what I did know and what I did have as a best friend however much or little of that was actually you…is actually spectacular – so don’t you go losing yourself in success that you find yourself in failure.
I wish you all life’s happiness’ and triumphs – I’m sorry I couldn’t stay around to be a part of them with you – the you I once knew. If she ever shows up again tell her to give me a call – we need to catch up.